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Smiling At Grief

by Twelfth Night

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1.
East Of Eden 03:29
it seems that paradise has been well locked and barred to all the issues of Adam it seems that children must pay for their parents crimes until they wish they never had them the clouds are fabric balls the earth machinery to gather power from the stars each of us has a gateway through which infinity calls to touch each victim through their scars we are walking through a kingdom that is found out here somewhere East of Eden East of Eden East of Eden East of Eden East of Eden
2.
This City 03:13
the abstracted shapes of the people's thoughts different shops and pubs all the cheap facades it is all this city it is all this city wind shaken trees half crumbling parks the enquiring eyes fingers parting lace it is all this city it is all this city long straggling queues of the out of work a baby sucking sweets dribbling down his quilt it is all this city it is all this city all this city
3.
everything you say to me appears to be an ancient quote taken from a printed problem column, words gone up in smoke all the time remembering a meaningless and worn routine a movement into emptiness just slowly running out of steam the honeymoon is over didn't your magazine just tell you? an album full of pictures really is no place to go and live replacing all the present time with nothing left that's new to give why does what is past enslave us, why should we let it go on? I cannot carry on pretending something's right when it is wrong the honeymoon is over didn't your magazine just tell you? didn't your magazine just tell you? whatever it is that we are saying we must always prove you're right if I can't agree with you, you argue on into the night always down to words it falls, where is the room we need to breathe? if it's not enough to be together, one of us must leave the honeymoon is over didn't your magazine just tell you? the honeymoon is over didn't you read it in your magazine? didn't you read it in your magazine?
4.
Creepshow 10:13
welcome, welcome first today to see the creepshow come see the exhibits but do not touch they cannot bear touch here in the creepshow please, do not hang back it's hard enough to show people around the creepshow first, here on the rack strapped a child's virgin mind we see the careful white-coats affix their machine's veins to the pulsing neck side checking dials they monitor reaction she must love her daddy's banker she must love her daddy's banker for her part in the creepshow Amanda, so sad Amanda, but let's brush over sadness give her the pills and diagnose madness Cyril Has-Or-Might-Have-Been must fill his lust they let him bayonet robots as his morning constitutional to state his rage unless he feels his age we can't have that! sometimes he'll watch a war film on the moron machine in the corner of his cell lost in time, lost in Mind Cyril writhes like smoke his bigot's eyes are slashed skin their expression none the nicer for being blank Amanda, still sad Amanda, still mad any more for any more! now it's up to you use your free will, you decide yes you, you, you decide whether or not you will return for if you come again you'd better bring your ball and chain unguided embittered attraction of the creepshow
5.
instrumental
6.
Puppets 02:50
motive hidden - eye made of wood nothing is evil - nothing is good always precision - each thing in place shapeless and splintered - awkward no grace puppets marching, strictly in time movement predestined, tugs on the line pride in their engines - thought on the wane caring unheard of - against the grain puppets marching, hear the wind whine gusting and howling, tugs on the line puppets marching, told to feel fine scared to be thrown back, tugs on the line puppets marching, faulty design strain overloading, fractures the line puppets marching puppets marching puppets marching puppets die
7.
raise one leg dream of death obliterate your sex holding breath this is a memory this is a trance it is the middle of a broken last chance it isn't movement it isn't free it is a moment deep in you and me dance... dance... dance... dance... dance... dance dancing in a midday, apparently frozen stance caught up in a nihilistic dance, dance, dance a single eye stares from a face with all the emptiness of limitless space without action without motion entombed in the oil of one man's emotion never casual more than a glance where the truth for a change has been paid in advance dance... dance... dance... dance... dance... dance dancing in a midday, apparently frozen stance caught up in a nihilistic dance, dance, dance dance... dance... dance... dance... dance... dance dancing in a midday, apparently frozen stance caught up in a nihilistic dance, dance, dance and the window being open shows the sky far away but the balustrade keeps us locked in to make us dance all day
8.
you know how it is when you're out walking split seconds behind reality catch impressions of the people talking and you think "it's all about me" missing things of interest 'cos you're not feeling try not to see the friends who wave and they just think all your thoughts must be reeling so they leave you well alone well I'm not going to go along with it this time because I know that it makes no sense at all we just end up with fruitless discussions soul searching with no point at all always bothered by the repercussions tense waiting for a fall still the words remain the same sad meanings of what is yours and what is mine they just get tired and we start off dreaming 'til we're running out of time well I'm not going to go along with it this time because I know that it makes no sense at all
9.
instrumental
10.
Kindergarden 03:05
everything is beautiful, yes everything is alright a mob of raging lunatics run screaming in the night foreign thoughts promoted to the status of our own weeping weeds like mama's boys to things we've never known kindergarden, play a game power plays still lingering, your portrait on the walls a sterile gas of advertising staves off curtain calls whatever else is happening to the states that we all know put too much strain on weaknesses and something has to go kindergarden, play the game tomorrow's world is evil if it seeds herself today for all the world is other children say there is no way time enough for everything, yes all the time in the world we can face up to the future with certificates unfurled kindergarden, play the game
11.
I lie on my bed and stare at the ceiling Outside the sky is crushing the atmosphere The stars above, the earth below Then worms, more earth, more sky Which is space, and stars I lie on my bed and try not to think too much Even the bed-springs are terrified into silence
12.
painting by numbers? no, not exactly no! not exactly, easy to imagine, difficult to see i don't need, i don't need, i don't need, i don't need your sympathy it seems pretty underhand what you did to me i don't need, i don't need, i don't need, i don't need your sympathy it will come together, i will find my way i don't need, i don't need, i don't need, i don't need your sympathy easy to imagine, impossible to see i don't need, i don't need, i don't need, i don't need your sympathy and the windows being open shows the sky far away but the balustrade keeps us locked in to make us dance all day to make us dance all day why must we keep on dancing we've had enough, enough dancing
13.
gather up the millions of words that are written put both birds in the arms of the dark think of the images broken and bitten blown into piles like leaves in the park convenient blindness tossing and turning the beast begins forays eating a pity, the remnants of pain follow the window which looks on the landscapes i found a new peace, says love's down the drain convenient blindness "this is the way the world works, sonny" sayeth the man with a brain full of ash "this is the stuff we all feed on, sonny" says his friend who comes up with the cash convenient blindness
14.
instrumental
15.
ah, look at all the lonely people ah, look at all the lonely people Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been lives in a dream waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door who is it for? all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong? Father McKenzie writing the words of a sermon that no one will hear no one comes near look at him working, darning his socks in the night when there's nobody there what does he care? all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong? Eleanor Rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name nobody came father McKenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave no one was saved all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong? Lyrics written by Lennon / McCartney.
16.
the abstracted shapes of the people's thoughts different shops and pubs all the cheap facades it is all this city it is all this city wind shaken trees half crumbling parks the enquiring eyes fingers parting lace it is all this city it is all this city long straggling queues of the out of work a baby sucking sweets dribbling down his quilt it is all this city it is all this city all this city
17.
everything is beautiful, yes everything is alright a mob of raging lunatics run screaming in the night foreign thoughts promoted to the status of our own weeping weeds like mama's boys to things we've never known kindergarden, play a game power plays still lingering, your portrait on the walls a sterile gas of advertising staves off curtain calls whatever else is happening to the states that we all know put too much strain on weaknesses and something has to go kindergarden, play the game tomorrow's world is evil if it seeds herself today for all the world is other children say there is no way time enough for everything, yes all the time in the world we can face up to the future with certificates unfurled kindergarden, play the game
18.
everything you say to me appears to be an ancient quote taken from a printed problem column, words gone up in smoke all the time remembering a meaningless and worn routine a movement into emptiness just slowly running out of steam the honeymoon is over didn't your magazine just tell you? an album full of pictures really is no place to go and live replacing all the present time with nothing left that's new to give why does what is past enslave us, why should we let it go on? I cannot carry on pretending something's right when it is wrong the honeymoon is over didn't your magazine just tell you? didn't your magazine just tell you? whatever it is that we are saying we must always prove you're right if I can't agree with you, you argue on into the night always down to words it falls, where is the room we need to breathe? if it's not enough to be together, one of us must leave the honeymoon is over didn't your magazine just tell you? the honeymoon is over didn't you read it in your magazine? didn't you read it in your magazine?
19.
ah, look at all the lonely people ah, look at all the lonely people Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice in the church where a wedding has been lives in a dream waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door who is it for? all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong? father Mckenzie writing the words of a sermon that no one will hear no one comes near look at him working, darning his socks in the night when there's nobody there what does he care? all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong? Eleanor Rigby died in the church and was buried along with her name nobody came father McKenzie wiping the dirt from his hands as he walks from the grave no one was saved all the lonely people where do they all come from? all the lonely people where do they all belong? Lyrics written by Lennon / McCartney.
20.
you know how it is when you're out walking split seconds behind reality catch impressions of the people talking and you think "it's all about me" missing things of interest 'cos you're not feeling try not to see the friends who wave and they just think all your thoughts must be reeling so they leave you well alone well I'm not going to go along with it this time because I know that it makes no sense at all we just end up with fruitless discussions soul searching with no point at all always bothered by the repercussions tense waiting for a fall still the words remain the same sad meanings of what is yours and what is mine they just get tired and we start off dreaming 'til we're running out of time well I'm not going to go along with it this time because I know that it makes no sense at all
21.
instrumental
22.
raise one leg dream of death obliterate your sex holding breath this is a memory this is a trance it is the middle of a broken last chance it isn't movement it isn't free it is a moment deep in you and me dance... dance... dance... dance... dance... dance dancing in a midday, apparently frozen stance caught up in a nihilistic dance, dance, dance a single eye stares from a face with all the emptiness of limitless space without action without motion entombed in the oil of one man's emotion never casual more than a glance where the truth for a change has been paid in advance dance... dance... dance... dance... dance... dance dancing in a midday, apparently frozen stance caught up in a nihilistic dance, dance, dance dance... dance... dance... dance... dance... dance dancing in a midday, apparently frozen stance caught up in a nihilistic dance, dance, dance and the window being open shows the sky far away but the balustrade keeps us locked in to make us dance all day
23.
motive hidden - eye made of wood nothing is evil - nothing is good always precision - each thing in place shapeless and splintered - awkward no grace puppets marching, strictly in time movement predestined, tugs on the line pride in their engines - thought on the wane caring unheard of - against the grain puppets marching, hear the wind whine gusting and howling, tugs on the line puppets marching, told to feel fine scared to be thrown back, tugs on the line puppets marching, faulty design strain overloading, fractures the line puppets marching puppets marching puppets marching puppets die
24.
the abstracted shapes of the people's thoughts different shops and pubs all the cheap facades it is all this city it is all this city wind shaken trees half crumbling parks the enquiring eyes fingers parting lace it is all this city it is all this city long straggling queues of the out of work a baby sucking sweets dribbling down his quilt it is all this city it is all this city all this city
25.
welcome, welcome first today to see the creepshow come see the exhibits but do not touch they cannot bear touch here in the creepshow please, do not hang back it's hard enough to show people around the creepshow first, here on the rack strapped a child's virgin mind we see the careful white-coats affix their machine's veins to the pulsing neck side checking dials they monitor reaction she must love her daddy's banker she must love her daddy's banker for her part in the creepshow Amanda, so sad Amanda, but let's brush over sadness give her the pills and diagnose madness Cyril Has-Or-Might-Have-Been must fill his lust they let him bayonet robots as his morning constitutional to state his rage unless he feels his age we can't have that! sometimes he'll watch a war film on the moron machine in the corner of his cell lost in time, lost in Mind Cyril writhes like smoke his bigot's eyes are slashed skin their expression none the nicer for being blank Amanda, still sad Amanda, still mad any more for any more! now it's up to you use your free will, you decide yes you, you, you decide whether or not you will return for if you come again you'd better bring your ball and chain unguided embittered attraction of the creepshow
26.
it seems that paradise has been well locked and barred to all the issues of Adam it seems that children must pay for their parents crimes until they wish they never had them the clouds are fabric balls the earth machinery to gather power from the stars each of us has a gateway through which infinity calls to touch each victim through their scars we are walking through a kingdom that is found out here somewhere East of Eden East of Eden East of Eden East of Eden East of Eden
27.
and it seems my time has passed before me until now, in sequences of moments and now I see this poster, they seem to need me anyway i’ll take the shilling sign i’ll make a positive move, to be an action man the women seem to want us to go so I can’t refuse, no, I can’t refuse so I find myself in a country somewhere where mayhem’s madman minions all march around a square unquestioning obedience is the order of the day your friends are coloured khaki and your enemies are grey the sergeant major’s pep talk “alright my likely lads, you’ve left your mums and dads, now our glorious leaders start a war, to protect the ’ole of ’umankind that’s why they always stay be’ind what d’ya mean “ain’t it wrong to kill?” Not if the top men say so! Where you’re going, sonny, general’s top chap next to him you’re a small piece of crap if none of us went out of fight, we’d never prove our side was right would we? ATTENTION!” the colonel’s pep talk “the front line is a pretty bloody place to be, that’s why you go instead of me now, I’d hate to send you all off thinking that if you get yours you’re going to fret about your families, so don’t. they’ll get some lovely souvenirs a nice bronze plaque on which will be your name you’ll get free crutches if you end up lame, good God though the numbers of dead will contain many zeros, the survivors will return to a land fit for heroes would I lie to you? PRESENT ARMS!” put next to a young boy in a knee-deep trench whose hand even shakes when he keeps it clenched we attack tomorrow in dawn’s early light and as this sinks in I’m so scared i can’t wait for it and tonight to be over it and tonight to be over “ALRIGHT LADS, OVER THE TOP WE GO!“ i can’t take it, I can’t make it, I trip, stumbling caught in the barbed wire, amongst the heat and smoke of the crossfire it’s madness, madness, mad mad mad mad mad mad…madness on a station platform full of stretchered flesh and bone legacy of how easy it is to destroy whatever’s grown maybe there’s a reason, hat is worthy of a name just sick illusions I suppose will happen again next time they ask for men at least I’m beyond recall i didn’t gain my self-respect, I didn’t gain anything at all if hate and war could solve anything, don’t you think they’d have solved it a long time ago? there’s good and evil in all of us it’s up to you alone which you follow and I know which is my cause from now on the only one worth sacrifice the only one I would have remain when I’m gone, but I’m not gone… yet! the flags we weave only deceive we must believe we must believe… in love
28.
gather up the millions of words that are written put both birds in the arms of the dark think of the images broken and bitten blown into piles like leaves in the park convenient blindness tossing and turning the beast begins forays eating a pity, the remnants of pain follow the window which looks on the landscapes i found a new peace, says love's down the drain convenient blindness "this is the way the world works, sonny" sayeth the man with a brain full of ash "this is the stuff we all feed on, sonny" says his friend who comes up with the cash convenient blindness

about

Tracks 1 to 15 were recorded at Woodcray Manor Farm Studios in November 1981.
Track 16 was recorded in the cellar of Geoff's house in Salford in June 1981.
Track 28 was recorded at Burghfield Mill in July 1981

The first nine tracks were originally released as the cassette Smiling At Grief. The recordings gathered together some demos to try and stimulate some record company interest and also to satisfy the growing number of fans who had been eagerly awaiting new material, particularly now that Geoff had joined the band.

Tracks 17 to 27 were recorded at the Target Pub, Reading on Thursday 10th December 1981 and have previously been released as the Twelfth Night Archive CD 'Smiling At Grief...Live' (TNCDR001)

Due to Twelfth Night's blossoming popularity in their home town, the band played under the, not so cryptic, pseudonym 'Jan Six and the Cryptic Clues'.

Despite Geoff having joined the band less than four months previously and Rick Battersby leaving after the initial 'Smiling At Grief' sessions, a considerable amount of new material had already been written and the group were in the process of adapting the new songs for live presentation.

Some worked well and were to remain in the live set for years to come; others were soon dropped. This unique recording features rare live versions of many of the songs from 'Smiling At Grief' and is the only known recording of this four-piece line-up of the band.

credits

released November 1, 1981

Andy Revell - lead guitar
Brian Devoil - drums, percussion
Clive Mitten - bass guitar, acoustic guitar, keyboards
Geoff Mann - vocals

Rick Battersby - keyboards on the studio versions of Creepshow, Three Dancers, Makes No Sense, Kindergarden, Keep The Aspidistra Flying and Convenient Blindness and on the alternative version of This City.

All tracks written, arranged, performed and produced by Twelfth Night except Eleanor Rigby, written by John Lennon & Paul McCartney and published by Northern Songs.

Tracks 1-9 (Smiling At Grief) de-noised and remastered by Peter Brusee at Q-Point digital Audio, Hilversum, Holland

All other tracks de-noised and remastered by Mark Hughes.

Tracks 17 to 27 (Smiling At Grief...Live) engineered by Nick Crompton.

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Twelfth Night are an English progressive rock band of the 1980s, reformed between 2007 and 2012 and again in 2014.

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